At last, I have completed my tagging in O&G (Obstetrics and Gynaecology). It was a stressful 7 days of tagging. Tagging is a period where one tags along with the other house-officers, medical-officers, and senior staff - to gain the basics of the department which will be essential as the first step. Tagging in O&G is from 7am until 12am - I know, thats a very long time! But you gotta do what you gotta do, right?
Here's a recap:
Day 1 - Excited and full of energy. Couldn't sleep the previous night as I was looking forward to a whole new world of knowledge and experience. Went back home feeling satisfied and also clueless. This department is unlike other departments - the knowledge you gain in others will not help you in this posting, and the knowledge you learn in this posting will not help you in other postings.
Day 2 - Still excited and wanted to perform as many procedures as I can.
Day 3 - Exhausted and still enthusiastic
Day 4-6 - When will this end??
Day 7 - Horrible! Put my dearest sister at harm by making a mistake in documentation. She was feeling very stressed and worried. Tried to calm her down by diverting her mind to other things, it didn't work. I felt totally awful. I was scolded on several occasions.
This was the day, that Dhany had a movie date with another colleague. I felt it was unfair to me. I have been asking her to go out for a movie with me for a very long time. She said she will let me know if she had time - which she didn't do until now. What is she thinking? Why the double standards? Is it okay to hurt me, and reject my invitation time and time again just because I am not her other friend. I know that people only hurt those close to them, but why me?
Whenever I tell her how much she means to me and who she is to me, she just keeps quiet. No reply at all.
Yes, you must be wondering what reply I would be expecting right? Here it is:
1) Thank you. It means a lot to me.
2) Thats very sweet of you.
3) I know how you feel, and it is nice to have someone who cares.
It is as simple as that. Life is really simple, why do we make it more complicated?
